my best friend
i'm sorry
sorry for not being the friend you want
sorry that i never had a boyfriend before
so that's why i can't understand you
sorry for not being able to understand how you feel
sorry for not being the 'fun' friend you want
sorry that i have too many restrictions in my life
sorry for always trying to make the effort to talk to you
when all you would say is, "you don't understand"
sorry for wasting your time when you could have spent it with someone else
sorry for asking too much in our friendship
sorry for trying to make things work
sorry for putting in my best to actually allow our friendship to last
liked how we said it would in primary school
sorry for the lies i told just to reassure myself
that everything is going to be alright
sorry for thinking that i am still as important in you life as i was back than
sorry for always thinking for myself and never for you
sorry for hurting you when you actually hurt me as well
sorry for taking time off my busy schedule to actually make the effort to ask you out
without having any agenda behind it
sorry for asking too much from you and when i do,
you would say, "i'm not that kind of friend. i can't be that kind of friend you want"
sorry for thinking that i was still your best friend
sorry for being tired for always hearing you having to say you're sorry
but most of all, i'm sorry for having to say all this to someone who i still regard as a best friend when i have more than 10 reasons to not regard you as such
what's happening?
questioning my sanity around 12:21 AM
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