Sep 27, 2007

what did i do today??nothing much seriously.i was wasting my time away.honestly, i live such a mundane life.i don't like to live a mundane life.i want something that spice things up a bit. i don't know what, but i'd take anything. no complaining y'all. beggars can't be choosers right?

ok, so i just finish laughing my head off with my sis. she was showing me and my other siblings stupid, hilarious and to a certain extent, gross, videos, attachments and forwarded emails. my god!its damn funny. then after that, we had the time of our life reliving our childhood memories.ok, so maybe its mostly MY childhood memory. they were patronizing me!!but no biggie. aww hell, i was even laughing along with them as well.maybe after i come to terms with my sordid childhood, i'll blog about it but for now, i'm laying low.mum's the word ya.ok, its usually round 9 to 10 pm whereby me and two of my sis would be in the study room when suddenly one of us would just say something random and it would eventually lead to a full blown out laughter. we would laugh and laugh until at one point my mom actually when out of the room and said, "farzanah.can you laugh more like a lady or not. your laughter not bad ah." ok, so wen it comes to laughter, i beat the rest hands down. what can i say, i can't help it.

i'm passing my time by reading books. you know in primary school and sometimes in secondary school, we have this book that allows you to record the number of books you read over the hols right?well, if we still have it, i think i could have filled the whole book. heck, i even have a
bookcase filled with books. i got all kinds of genre. you name it, i got it.

Sep 25, 2007

i've dabbled in a LOT of works. from writing poems to photography. but of course my interest in photogaphy was short lived because my attention span was gone by the time they taught the practical. who wants to learn all those theory? they basically teach us the fundamentals of photography. as in how you capture the perfect picture, how much light you want to be in your pictures, blah blah blah.


then there was this one time i wrote a fanfiction with a friend of mine. again, it was cut short. we had a lot of other priorities going on and so we decided to abandon the fic. then, quite a while back, i got an idea for a novel. so i penned my ideas down and got started with few pages. ok, maybe it lasted till the first chapter. then my stupid muse just had to abandon me at the wrong timing. i was on a roll dude!!you can't just leave me there. so now, i'm looking up in my yellow pages for temp muse to fill up the space my previous muse left till she comes back. does temp job include hiring a muse??


the only thing that i'm faithful with, is poems. i've written about 9 pieces. it kind of comes and go. the inspiration that is. one minute i'm doing my own work, the next thing i realise, is that i'm writing words to form sentences on pieces of paper. it gets messy, but hey, the end product is worth it though.


i realise that i'm like, jack of all trades. i know how to do everything, but i don't know everything in depth. i have yet to find my niche point in life. you know when they say that "you should find something you're good at, stick with it"? well, let me enlighten you guys, i have yet to find something im good at. sure i took up history and literature in sec one and two, then i took up pure science in sec 3 and sec 4 and now i'm majoring in IT but doesn't mean i'm good at all of them. it just so happens that i got a chance to take up different subjects and experience it.

Sep 24, 2007

so here i was fliping thru my photo albums and i got the shock of my life. i saw my sec one and sec two class photos!!my god!!i was speechless. my sister then had the audacity to laugh at me!!argh!!


but looking back, i can tell that i have come far. very far. seriously dude. sec one and sec two, i was the goody2 two shoes girl. i wear my socks beyond my ankle(but not that high mind you!!round a couple of fingers higher), my skirt was long(again not THAT long. round 3 fingers beyond my knee??), my backpack is so heavy until i had to change a couple of times all these because i dared not keep my books under my table. always head home straight after school. during that time, i don't even know the term 'hanging out' and i always without fail did my homework. copying is never an option.



so that was four years ago. moving on to the next two years, i was the total opposite. my socks was two fingers BELOW my ankle. heck, most of the time you can't even see my socks. then i was introduced to the term of altering the length of your skirt.yeah, so i had my skirt shortened only by two fingers above my knee!!that's all!i swear!!i don't want to potray myself as a stuck up or slut or wadever people call those who wear super short skirts. my bag, HAH!!its almost as good as me coming to school with only a clutch bag!but i didn't cause my school don't allow so i was forced to bring a big bag with only my writing materials and textbooks that had homework to be done inside my bag. most of my other school materials, that's right y'all. it's all under the desk. my desk then weighed a lot. Homework?HAH!!never heard of it.


going out after school, is a must baby. ok, so not maybe everyday, but most of the times i tend to hang out after school. it's unaccountable.and that's part of the reason why i slacked off so much during those two years. geez, i tend to take a sabbatical leave off my studies during the wrong timing man. trust me, i'm never a good judge in these kind of things.

Sep 21, 2007

lawyers are usually people that graduate at the top of the class. never fail a single subject. exceed the credits expectations. have stacks of notes everywhere. and always think before they ask or do anything. so here i was reading something about lawyers n oooh boy, its damn hilarious.

so in generally they say lawyers are smart, quick and efficient. but are all these at the expense of their pointles and senseless question? read on and u'll know why.


Q: How was your first marriage terminated?
A: By death.
Q: And by whose death was it terminated?


Q: Can you describe the individual?
A: He was about medium height and had a beard.
Q: Was this a male, or a female?


Q: She had three children, right?
A: Yes.
Q: How many were boys?
A: None.
Q: Were there any girls?


Q: Doctor, how many autopsies have you performed on dead people?
A: All my autopsies are performed on dead people.
Q: Do you recall the time that you examined the body?
A: The autopsy started around 8:30 p.m.
Q: And Mr. Dennington was dead at the time?
A: No, he was sitting on the table wondering why I was doing an autopsy.



geez, and they say lawyers are brilliant.

Sep 18, 2007

being cooped up at home can be rather tiresome. not physically but mentally. its mentally draining if you must know. i mean, one can only do so much over a span of 12 hrs or more.


going out is an option but who to go with? shopping might be good but im cash strap so that's a no go.eating and drinking is definitely out of the question unless of course i go out before the break of dawn or after sunset.who in their right mind would want to go out iduring these time?at night i understand but morning?that's ridiculous.unless of course you are catching an early flight, a photographer trying to capture nature during sunrise or sunset or something else.


basically, my options are rather limited. sure reading books ought to keep me occupied, but for goodness sake, i'm not THAT into books. i wish to have a life that does not revovle around books mind you.


though im going shopping tomorrow. can't wait. it's like as though i've not stepped out of the house for the past 17 yrs of my life and this is my first time. weird huh? well, that's what holidays do to people who are not working and in desperate need of an activity..

Sep 15, 2007

the human mind is a gift waiting to be unravelled slowly.wonders that always seem to blow our mind. discoveries waiting to be discovered.

so, i have found something that is darn interesting. at first i skipped reading it, then i thought, why not give it a try. i did and i realised that the human mind is really something to be amazed of.you don't have to think real hard just to figure out one word. you can basically read it normally. trust me, it works.


I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdgnieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the human mnid aoccdrnig to rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a word are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe.

Sep 12, 2007

i've just realised something..my life is dictated by plenty of rituals...ok, nt my whole life, but some of it...its something like "u let rules run ur life"
like how i HAVE to bath first right after i woke up...no eating, watching tv or making any detours..
it's a must for me to brush my teeth before going to sleep...even if i were already in bed and i if realised that i have not brushed my teeth, i would get up n go to the toilet just to brush my teeth...
there's more obviously, but i dnt tink i wan to put my daily rituals up here...its gonna be embarassing u noe....
moving on, i know i have not been UPDATING in a long time...ive been bz...got a whole new project going on..it takes up a lot of my time...sleeping in late at night to finish up the final draft and to re-check n re-check to make sure its up to my expectations..then i have to deal with people that obviously dnt like me...well, at least i tink they dnt frm deir behaviour n actions towards me..honestly, if u dnt like me, jz say it...i will jz tell u to deal with it n move on....i'm not going anywhere..that i can guarantee u...i don't know why people bother in taking the time to hate other people or find problem with them...do they have all the time in the world to deal with frivolous matters such as these?sometimes i wonder, what makes the world so full of hatred. cnt they move on from the mistakes made by other people or themselves for tat matter and move on? i know it is easier said then done but if u dnt try, u wld nvr noe now wld u?

Sep 10, 2007


So many things have occurred
That made our friendship unstable
But what ever is the matter
It would always be unbreakable

But I start to question our friendship
When a guy came into your life
And you told me not to worry
Or was that just a lie

I’m not the only one to be blame
Neither am I being unreasonable
But all the reasons you told me are lame
Or are you telling me some are justifiable

So let me make it clear
That I am no longer your tool
For I know that sometimes I’m blur
But that don’t mean you can take me for a fool


- written by my own-