if i ever hv problems, u guys wld always be there for me...i may not b the easiest person to deal with but you guys took the word patient to a whole new level by jz being dere for me n handling my attitude...i noe lately i hv been behaving crap n im sorie for that..everiting is moving so fast...i noe i cn rely on e both of u for anithing...you guys wld b e one hu catches me if i were to ever fall or lose my way...im so grateful for everything u hv done for me...i may not hv say it out loud or shown it thru' any actions, bt just for e record, u guys hv made me realize dat in life, there is more den meet the eyes...n for that im ETERNALLY gratefully for u...i dont noe y i cnt say this out loud but i jz cnt..mayb in a few mths time i cn say this out loud but for nw, lets jz leave it here aite...thanx so much for EVERITING kak saiyidah n kak kaiyisah...I LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS!!
don't be afraid to make mistakes, stumble or fall
coz most of the time
the greatest reward comes from
doing things that scares you the most.
maybe you get everything you wish for,
maybe you get more then you could have imagined.
who knows where life will take you,
for the road is long
and the journey itself
is the destination.
yes!!i can FINALLY update...so to my dearest farz (fyi, shes my madrasah fren n nt myself), tis entry is updated specially for u...ya rite!!like real!!i'd rather die 1st den dedicate an entry to u!!hahax...kidding....
anw, tis wk hv been totally shitty for me...lots of things hv happen...u noe sometimes dere's a point in ur life whr evrythng that is black n white becomes grey...well, that jz happened to me..i dunnoe wad went wrong...but i tink nw im given e privillege to view everything in a new perspective..
rite nw, im so confused, pissed, hurt, depressed, etc...i gt a frend tat made me tink bout frendship twice...she hv made me see that sometimes ur best frend r nt hu u tot they wld turn out to be...tat sometimes dey r just best frend in name n nothing more...things jz kind of happen so fast until i dont noe wad to do animore...thank god i hv both my sis n kina...i tink wifout dem i doubt so i cn take it animore..so thx SO much guys!!love u loads!!muakz!!
to me, tat particular fren of mine is as gd as dead...she does ntg..n instead of defending me n take my side, she laughs at me..wad kind of fren is dat??fine..so i noe that u r joking but dere is a line n u hv crossed it...criusly..u hv hurt my feelings n saying sorry wld not b enuf...i hv half e heart to say that we r no longer frends bt wen i thought back bout wad we've been thru', its jz not worth it...but wad's e point of tis frendship if im suffering...n also if u dun even wan to tell me e truth...u'd rather lie to me den tell me e truth...tis is going to be an internal battle that i dun tink i cn take it animore...i dun want to giv up but i got plenty of reasons to do so otherwise...give me a GOOD reason as to why i shldnt do wad is right for me...
screw u!! i waited n waited.
u stil didnt even reply me. not even a one
werd reply. fyi, im stil ranting on bout yest post.
if u lost it, jz tell me cn or nt? nt as though im gona
end our frendship. ntg THAT drastic. though im tempted
to. c'mon gerl, i cn nvr stay mad u 4ever. so, jz end my god
damn dilemma by replying me back cn? sheesh...
im pissed...mad...well, im not THAT pissed nor mad...its just that u c...i borrowed my mp3 to my frend...scratch that...i lent it to my best fren...i passed to her the mp3 small beg also n inside it was a spare batt n e mp3 string...n guess wad?wen i received it back, e string n e batt was gone...i wanted to ask her bout it but i didnt coz she had her eng oral on e dae she returned it bak to me n so i dun wan to worry her or aniting so i waited till 2dae to ask her...n its been almost 3 hrs since i asked her!!!n she still hv nt replied me back!!!aarrggh...i tried to tink of other possibilities as to y she nvr reply me back...but all i came up wif doesnt make sense....im so pissed..y cnt she even msg me back?a one werd reply will also do...ok, so if shes tight on her sms, she cn AT LEAST give me a kol by using her hse phone....im sure she has one...i mean some of u might think y gt all so worked up over someting so insignificant right?but HELL-O...thats my property n i need it..i entrusted her with my mp3 n if this is wad i gt back evertime i borrow her my mp3, im alwaes going to hv to think twice b4 borrowing it to her...i mean b4 she borrowed, another frend of mine borrowed it n she giv it back to me with everiting still inside e beg...god..wad pissed me off the most is e fact that shes my best frend....god!!its so unfair...
i can never write a proper entry....in terms of language...im nt very gd at describing what happens to my day or other stuffs....i just found out tat im nt gd at descriptions...oh wells...dere goes my chance at becoming an author...i mean, really, if u give me a topic, i cn write easily...my thoughts flow god damn easily bt if u ask me to write aniting wifout giving a topic, i will jz stare at e paper thinking bout wad to write...dats y for compo, i prefer to write a one word essay rather den argumentative or descriptive or e one whr u hv to begin or end ur story wif "blah, blah, blah..."...dere will b times whr i hv tis brilliant idea n im jz itching to write it down on a piece of paper bt den as time pass by, i tend to lose interest in it n so...well..u guys cn figure out e rest rite?i tink tats y one of e reason y i dont update my blog frequently...bcoz i jz cnt seem to write bout wad happen to me in words...its...i dunnoe...a tad difficult...anw...enuf bout my incapability....guess wad??!!im gona hv a 3 days break frm sch!!!!oh yes!!thank god....i actuali dun intend to go to sch on tues bt den u c aft e celebration my teacher wans us to stayback coz she wans to finish up e syllabus for physics...so rite nw im torn whether to go or nt....tis sux...n we hv to wear a red tee...either tat or our 'tampines turns 20 shirt'...i cnt wear e latter coz i dont noe whr i kept it...turned my wardrobe inside out n i stil cnt find it...its so horrible...red n green??tat is a BIG no no....its a major clash man...eeww...
