Jan 31, 2007

who gives a damn about rules
when sometimes you have to play dirty
so people who abide them are fools
to think you will get far in this reality

honestly, rules are meant to be broken...nowadays people don't follow the rules..yeah, sure, a handful of us still follow the rules, but ask yourself this, how far will it take you?its as good as opening your own business by the book...meaning you start your own business only to follow by the books you have read and not your own initiative or gut feeling...of course it goes without saying that one shouldn't rush into a decision cause you might not know where you will end up..

to me, rules only make you feel caged...you can't do what you want without thinking about the consequences,you have to think about the rules before doing something or some other stupid things you have to consider before doing anything...bottomline is, there's not much freedom...

if i want to live life to the fullest, i want it bar from any rules...i want to do it MY way..its my life and i don't want anyone dictating it for me...my life, my rules...i'm not good at listening to other people bossing me around...in fact, i get pissed off when people ask me to do something..i know its not good and that is why i want to set up my own business and be my own boss..i know its not easy, but whoever says everything in life is a bed of roses?

baiklah...untuk topik hari ini ialah, sebenarnya saya tidak ada topik...saya di cabar oleh kawan saya yang bodoh itu untuk menulis semua ''karangan'' saya dalam bahasa melayu..sudahlah harus menulis dalam bahasa melayu, hendak baku pula!!!mengada-ngada...saya sumpah kalau saya tidak dapat minuman kopi saya, awak daging mati!!!faham tidak!!!untuk masa sekarang, saya benci awak su'aidah!!
ini cabaran yang paling bodoh pernah saya buat...bodoh sekali!!!hendak tahu bagaimana saya mahu membuat cabaran ini?alasan yang paling mudah nampak sangat ialah kalau saya dapat buat cabaran ini dengan betul, saya dapat kopi dan alasan yang seterusnya ialah, saya menunjukkan awak saya bukan orang asing yang celup!!!saya tahu bahasa ibunda saya dengan baik faham?!apalah harus saya buat supaya otak awak yang kecil itu dapat memahami bahawa melayu saya tidak teruk langsung...
baiklah, tadi di dalam kenderaan awam, kami tengah bebicara mengenai cabaran saya ini dan kami megeluarkan idea yang tidak masuk akal...maksud saya, kepada saya ia masuk akal, tetapi kalau orang yang membaca ini, nampak sangat mati kerana sakit jantung...kami munukar kata-kata yang kurang baik daripada bahasa Inggeris kepada melayu...contohnya, (kepada kakak saya yang amat disayangi, jangan bilang ibu kita apa yang telah saya tulis..terima kasih) membuat perhubungan seksual *isikan nama sesiapa disini*...saya berasa jahat..tidak..tidak boleh..saya rasa kurang selesa...lebih baik untuk cakap daripada menaip...
bodoh!!!merepeknya!!!saya macam seorang budak kecil yang baru belajar menulis bahasa melayu...jaga awak aidah!!!awak akan mati!!!dan baidura, awak jangan nak ketawa!!!aidah, awak akan bayar untuk ini...dan pada ketahuan saya, awak tidak menetapkan berapa saya boleh beli kopi saya, jadi untuk membuat saya rasa lebih baik, saya akan suruh awak membeli air yang paling mahal!!ambil ini kawan yang tidak berguna!!

Jan 29, 2007

bloody hell...my head feels as though i've hit it on the pavement...my head throbs man!!n it feels as though its splitting into two...went out in the morning to do some grocery shopping..ok, to be more specific, shopping for my baking neccessities...came back home, and started doing my killer chocolate cheesecake...i swear to god, im not exaggerating..that's really the name of the cake...now, im chiiling it in the fridge and im suppose to wait for at least, AT LEAST 12 whole freaking hours...sheesh man...so long...but nvm, patience is one of my virtues...
i've done nothing but flip thru all the recipe books or magazines..call me crazy but the thought of baking and fully utilizing the new oven entices me..i've been making one cake after another one..mostly cheesecake though...i've made cookies and brownies..oh yeah, plenty of brownies as well...i was thinking of opening up my own business...under f&b...but my sis said that its a very difficult market to break through cause of the tough competitors...but, ntg ventured ntg gained right?im trying to make it into a family business...my sis have agredd to it and shes serious..well, at least I think shes serious...
isnt it cool to be your own boss?people don't oder you around...there's always something new to look forward to..its very predictable that when you first start off things might be a tad rocky...its usual to have a rocky start...but with the right attitude, i guess nothing can't be overcome right?

Jan 25, 2007

alright, so majority of us here have the mentality that most blonde are ditzy..no offence to all blondes ya...anyway, behind the ditzy exterior, they have a very diabolical, manipulative interior...they may not know it, but when they use it, it gets them big bucks man...



A blonde and a lawyer are seated next to each other on a flight from LA to NY. The lawyer asks if she would like to play a fun game? The blonde, tired, just wants to take a nap, politely declines and rolls over to the window to catch a few winks. The lawyer persists and explains that the game is easy and a lot of fun. He explains, "I ask you a question, and if you don't know the answer, you pay me $5.00, and vice versa. " Again, she declines and tries to get some sleep. The lawyer, now agitated, says, "Okay, if you don't know the answer you pay me $5.00, and if I don't know the answer, I will pay you $500.00." This catches the blonde's attention and, figuring there will be no end to this torment unless she plays, agrees to the game. The lawyer asks the first question. "What's the distance from the earth to the moon?" The blonde doesn't say a word, reaches into her purse, pulls out a $5.00 bill and hands it to the lawyer. "Okay" says the lawyer, "your turn." She asks the lawyer, "What goes up a hill with three legs and comes down with four legs?" The lawyer, puzzled, takes out his laptop computer and searches all his references, no answer. He taps into the air phone with his modem and searches the net and the library of congress, no answer.
Frustrated, he sends e-mails to all his friends and coworkers, to no avail. After an hour, he wakes the blonde, and hands her $500.00. The blonde says, "Thank you," and turns back to get some more sleep. The lawyer, who is more than a little miffed, wakes the blonde and asks, "Well, what's the answer?" Without a word, the blonde reaches into her purse, hands the lawyer $5.00, and goes back to sleep. And you thought blondes were dumb.



i guess the phrase "never judge a book by its cover" is not so overly rated huh...

Jan 24, 2007

in life, there are battles we cannot overcome...a person cannot always expect victory when they face an obstacle/problem/dilemma or etc....if you think you're the best and that there is nothing in this world you cannot overcome, you better get your freaking nose, that is way up high up in the air, back down..being stuck-up doesn't help...

don't be ashamed to admit to mistakes cause that is part and parcel of life..admit it, rectify it and move on...it will do a whole lot of good for your conscious..admitting defeat is what some people may call as an act or courage..it takes a whole lot of courage to admit that you are in the wrong or that you are defeated..as the famous saying goes, "Be a man. Do the right thing."

so, don't succumb to failure...dust yourself up and give it another shot...don't let the outcome of certain actions determine your future cause thats not what life is about..play your cards right and you may live the life that you always want..whatever doesn't kill you, makes you stronger..

Jan 23, 2007

regrets come in many shapes and sizes. we regret doing things that we didnt do. we regret not saying the things that we want to say. we regret doing things that would result in a bad outcome. we regret in helping those who don't deserve it and lastly, we regret the times where we could have made a difference in something but we were too stubborn to do anything about it.

yeah, regret is full of itself. we bring it upon ourself. we have no one but us to blame for feeling regret. yes, we have the right to mull over it but never ever let regret hold us back.it is anything but another obstacle for us to overcome. some people let regret take over until they are affected by it. be it emotionally or physically.

i know i am living in a life full of regrets. but somehow or rather, i push all of the regrets away and live for today and not care about what had happened. i take each day step-by-step and live it to the fullest. of course along the way i would face with a couple of obstacles but i take it in stride and continue on.

we take a step forward but our regrets or insecurities made us take two steps back. if thats the problem, we are nowhere near our goals. life would be meaningless and all our efforts are all for naught.

Jan 19, 2007

i am void of all emotions..the sudden feeling of numbness crept over me...i cnt do anything...i haven had the faintest idea what caused this feeling...trust me, if i know, you guys would be the 1st to know....im still trying to figure it all out though, so, give me some space...

when i thought everything is under control, things go haywire...sheesh...and here i thought life clouldnt get anymore complicated..honestly...well, anyway, let's put that behind me...

today, yes today, i got something from my bro!!its something i would treasure..though everyone seem to think i don't care about my brother at all n that i hate him with every of my fibre being, i love him lots...i know im not good at showing my feelings, but when it comes to my bro, he always come first...so, frankly speaking, i don't give a rat ass what other people say to me about my feelings towards my bro..as far as im concerned, i love him..thats that...i dont care if ppl think i detest him..i dont shower him with love..but hey, life is full misunderstandings, so i shall give them the benefit of doubt about me...but is it still misunderstanding when i have been thought about that way for the past few years?

Jan 17, 2007

i think for the past few days i have either been obtusely defensive, greatly sarcastic and unwantedly cynical...ever heard about the walls that people built around themselves to avoid emotional breakdown or insanity and all that crap?well, i think my walls is made up of all of the aforementioned.

crazy huh?but you see, i don't like to be left defenseless...i strongly believe in protecting myself from any psychological, emotional and mental health...being at a disadvantage is not an option...its not a situation i like to be in for the rest of my life...to me,as crazy as it may sound, being at a disadvantage is sometimes a point of weakness..trust me, these walls i have built, is like a friggin' concrete...try as you might, its darn difficult to break it down...but on the other hand, i see myself being a prisoner to my own defences...

you don't open up, ur life is miserable...but if you open up, you will be in a very vulnerable situation...so, i'm at a loss here...life is never easy huh?everything that you do, every action that you make, has repercussions...bottomline is, it sucks...you have to step into a whole new teritory to understand life...its never easy, but take it step-by-step and i guess you can overcome almost anything...

nothing ventured nothing gained right?

Jan 14, 2007

you know, while i was reading a book, a sudden thought came to me..i was like, wad made friends so special?why are there so many quotes, stories, poems n god knows what else, all about friends?and sometimes i wonder, is it true?all these sentences quoting bout friendship?coz as of right now, i find all those useless...u wan enlightenment on friendship, dnt look it up dere...find it frm within ur own friendship coz the best answer comes frm ur own experience..

so, i was surfing the net, trying to see whether my point was right or wrong..e point bout tonnes of poems, stories, quotes, etc...all on friendship..and i found one..which truly caught my attention...

Are you tired of those asinine "friendship" poems with decent intentions, but never actually come close to reality? Well, here's a collection of promises that actually speak of true friendship.

1. When you are sad - I will help you get drunk and plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.
2. When you are blue - I will try to dislodge whatever is choking you.
3. When you smile - I will know you finally got laid.
4. When you are scared - I will rag on you about it every chance I get.
5. When you are worried - I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be until you quit whining.
6. When you are confused - I will use little words.
7. When you are sick - Stay the hell away from me until you are well again. I don't want whatever you have.
8. When you fall - I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.


Friendship is like pissing your pants, everyone can see it, but only you can feel the warmth.
ladies and gentlemen, this is the hard core meaning of friendship.

Jan 13, 2007

Little Johnny Answers the Question

Teacher: "Four crows are on the fence. The farmer shoots one. How many are left?"
Little Johnny: "None."
Teacher: "Listen carefully: Four crows are on the fence. The farmer shoots one. How many are left?"
Little Johnny: "None."
Teacher: "Can you explain that answer?"
Little Johnny: "One is shot, the others fly away. There are none left."
Teacher: "Well, that isn't the correct answer, but I like the way you think"
Little Johnny: "Teacher, can I ask a question?"
Teacher: "Sure."
Little Johnny: "There are three women at the ice cream parlor. One is licking, one is biting and one is sucking her ice cream cone. Which one is married?"
Teacher: "The one sucking the cone."
Little Johnny; "No. The one with the wedding ring on, but I like the way you think."



Little Joey

Little Joey was sitting in the back of class rubbing his crotch, and the teacher asked, "Joey what are you doing?" Joey replied, "Teacher, my mommy had me circumsized yesterday and it still hurts." So the teacher sent Joey to the principal's office to call his mother and ask what he should do.
When Joey came back from the office, the teacher noticed that he had his penis hanging out. Shocked, the teacher asked, "Joey, what are you doing!?" Joey answered, "Mommy told me to stick it out till lunch and then she would be here to pick me up."



Little Johnny Stands Up

A new teacher was trying to make use of her psychology courses. She started her class by saying, "Everyone who thinks you're stupid, stand up!"
After a few seconds, Little Johnny stood up. The teacher said, "Do you think you're stupid, Little Johnny?"
"No, ma'am, but I hate to see you standing there all by yourself!"



Mommy and Daddy Dearest

There are some children in a class naming animals and they come across a picture of a deer. So the teacher asks Bobby, "What is this animal called?" "I dunno," claims Bobby. So then she says, "I'll give you a hint-it's what your mother calls your father." The boy thinks for a minute and then says, "Oh that's what a son of a bitch looks like!"

honestly, kids this days...

somethings we learn in life is useful and some are not..there will be a point where we learnt from them and times where we blatantly ignore them...its up to us whether or not we want to learn from them...

some lessons we learnt from other people but most of the time, it comes from ourselves...we may not realize it but our actions speaks for us...i can honestly say that i'm not one that follow them..im not the kind of girl that ''learnt from her lesson''....i see a mistake, i acknowledge it, i move on and by chance, i would repeat the mistake again...it takes time for me to learn from my mistakes...i don't take too kindly to being reprimanded...i know to a certain extent that i may be in the wrong with this kind of perception but this is me...i can try to change certain aspects of my life but this is someting that i can't seem to shake off...

i hate to be questioned about my motives, i hate any type of confrontations...don't get me wrong, i'm not a coward or anything, but when i'm being confronted, it can blow up to a full-scale war and i don't like that cause i know at one point, one of the parties may get hurt with the words that we exchange heatedly and i rather like to avoid that if possible...

Jan 3, 2007






orite..so tats it ppl...im kind to the core..i cnt believe it!!im nt kind...ok..so mayb i am but im in denial..heck..wadever..gotta embrace the fact..so ppl, dere u go, the truth bout me...i help ppl out wif my good power..a step towards being a psychologist..